i finally said something to someone today about some things and it didnt go over too well. it made me feel like everyone was out to get me. i did not want to ruin the friendship and i did not want to ruin things between tim and i. at the same time i did not really want to hurt anyone. it took me a while to figure out what was bothering me and how to say it. but thanks to tim and mom i was able to get the courage to say something today. i had to say it though. i couldnt pretend everything was going to be right this weekend. at first i wanted tim to deal with it but then he refused. he said that it was my place. i also refused to believe that, but it was true. he is amazing guy. i am learning a lot from him. Being patient being understanding dont rush into things think before i talk. i am sorry that i hurt someone but i couldnt let it go without saying something.

I hurt my back big time...i have no idea what I did to it but I woke up with it hurting yesterday...and it hurts even more today...i hope nothing to serious is wrong with it....did not do a whole lot today...did some research this morning at the archives and then came to berkeley...was going to go to the library this afternoon but my back was not up for it..i cant twist turn sit or lay on it...plus i feel sick...my back hurting is affecting my mood and attitude...mom and tim are receiving the bulk of it.

yeah tim and i do not have a perfect relationship...we have realized that....we might come across as having one...but we really dont...maybe thats because we hid the impurities or problems well...but you know tim is amazing...he has to be one of the most patient guys ever...and is the best guy ever and yeah i know i am biased...who wouldnt be with a guy like tim..i know girls are jealous cause tim is an amazing guy but i know he only has eyes and feelings for me :)

ny research is going good..im enjoying every moment of it...been reading deportation files...very interesting stuff...but i will write more on that another time

San Francisco (i can finally spell it :) ) 

Alcatraz (if you can see it) 

Golden Gate 

portland, OR 

the space needle 

jen and i in seattle 

lisa and kyle leaving for the honeymoon :) 

Me, Jen, Lisa, Kyle, Lindsey, and Jonathan 

kyle wants you :) 

Greetings from inner city san francisco...drove down all day to arrive here early evening...well after being tourist at the golden gate bridge..man it was crowded there..got in right before like three or four or maybe five tour buses unloaded...It was hot between CC and SF but in SF its not that bad...windy along the bay and cool right now...but I am missing someone right now...i miss him soo much...i know that I have fallen for him soo hard...his quiet and loyal and hard working character...his sarcasim...his teasing....his laughter...his smile...everything bout him I miss...Someone once told me that we have a near perfect relationship...never explained why this person said it...but tim and i laughed at it...we know we dont have a perfect relationship....we are working on a lot of things...exploring who the other person is and working on communication....we both communicate differently...we don't need a book to tell us that....we needed four years of friendship to tell us that...but you know we are working through things....neither one of us are afraid to tell the other person what we are feeling or what we are thinking or if the other person did something to hurt one without meaning too....not thats what makes a relationship work...even a long distance one...but trust and respect and loyalty also plays a part in making a long distance relationship work. anyways...enough bout tim and how much i like him :)

i lost my other computer and picked up a new one. I need to post some pictures but before I can do that I need to download hello :( i hate downloading stuff, but oh well. I will try to do that soon. I have some great pictures of lisa and kyle's wedding, seattle, and redwoods and san fran...cant wait to share them with yall